Virgin-liciousSweet17

2010-04-19T03:49:00.000+08:00

I've change my link . Please get it from me thru msn or messages !! .

2010-04-05T17:13:00.001+08:00

My blog could have been declared dead .
I shall revive it once again .
There's nothing much else to say .
Had been having high fever nowadays .
&It's tormenting !!.
Wish that he was here , but i know he wont .
Leave it buhs , let it be .
I love him still ,
Thats all i can whisper .

2010-03-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting , &I've never stopped waiting .

2010-03-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

SHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!
I know , i know.
I havent been posting nowadays.
But but but , will just have a short updates this time.
Confused situation in love life with baby
&&Thats all it takes to make me NO LIFE !!
No no no, Dont tell me 'infatuation'.
Because it's not .
I've done a lot for him
&Now , im just waiting .
Silly me. For you , I will stay silly always .
*8days already . ):

2010-02-14T04:46:00.001+08:00

At times , Im just so tired to speak.
But seriously ,
All i wanna know is ...
Do you know me or not ?

2010-02-13T02:17:00.003+08:00

Day was alrights .

Going out later.

&&&Shall update more thn.

3 more days to go to night safari with R.K.K (((: YIPPPPEEEEEEE !!

*Do i matters to you or not ? Or rather , Do you even bother to care?*

2010-02-11T00:37:00.002+08:00

STUPID BLOGGER !
I cant upload pictures again .
FINE !!!
Shall update tmr.
Nothing special today .
But just things that pissed me off !
*I wonder , who is syya'risse to you ? Does she even mean anyting more thn your activities?*

2010-02-10T01:30:00.001+08:00

I felt as though im not th one for you .):
Why are these thoughts going through my mind th whole day ?
I really dont understand .
How i wish that i could get rid of them ,
Get rid )):
Do you really cares whether you have me or not ?

2010-02-09T03:02:00.004+08:00

我想要拥有一种永远都不让我感觉到一丝丝寂寞的东西。
而，那就是爱(:
Colleague came &drive me to work today.
I came back home
&&Im kinda tired.
Misses someone a lot (: I miss you!
Time to say '
BYE READERS !

2010-02-08T02:42:00.001+08:00

Spend a BOMBBBBB lastnight .
&I reached home this morning .
Slept for four hours plus
&&I headed to work.
Was damn tired .
Anyways , Shall update tomorroww (:
BYYYYYEEEEEE READERS !!!

*Going shopaholic with xiaojean next week for heels .(: *

2010-02-06T03:05:00.002+08:00

Powerhouse , Zirca , Powerhouse , Zirca !!
*Screammms*
I wants to have that fun also cans ?
Shuts my working life.
Nothing else but work all day long .
SHUTS luhs !
Neverminds . Update tomorrow.
I wanna take your hands , &walk thru' all th hard times together (:

2010-02-05T02:07:00.002+08:00

有些事只有用心，才能感受到它的重要性。
Im tired to speak tonight .
Just one sentence , to make known everything.
Im trying my best , give me some time.
Alrights ,
Let's just all get to bed readers !!
Byyyyyyeeeee readers !

2010-02-03T23:42:00.001+08:00

I've booked my tickets to night safari with R.K.K (:
Looking so forward to it oh(:
Twelve days more (:

2010-02-02T22:21:00.005+08:00

Camwhoring today .

There are actually more .

But I am just too lazy to upload them .

Spend over two hundred bucks today .

Oh mans !

Feeling feverish

&Im gonna say BYYYYYEEEEEEE now ~

2010-02-02T09:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY TWO MONTHS !!
I promised i would post this in blog .
Now that i did , Alrights !! (:
xiaoR will be heading town today !
That will be the itinery for th day (:
Alrights , shall blog in later of th day buhs (:

2010-02-02T02:21:00.002+08:00

To describe today , just one simplified word .
SUCKYSS !
Zen drove me to work today morning.
I almost got up late.
I just find as though i dont want to get up.
Reached workplace.
Someone said that he's going to get me a Rina Ricci perfume!
Nice smell :D
I got to find out about my pay today.
Guess what ?!
I only got eight hundred bucks !
Shuts !
Day wasnt as pleasant at work today.
At night , He called me up &chat (:
Just for everything today ,
I love that part best (((:

2010-02-01T01:50:00.003+08:00

Trying to upload those sweet &nice photos with my dear boyboy

But blogger just let me upload this pathetic one !

EEEEEEEEK !!

Day at work today was alrights .

I was super damn late for work

&They said somethings which hurts me badly.

But i just kept quiet .

At times i just simply wonder ,

Why ? &Just why ?

Watched th unborn today at work.

Rating for that show was 4.5/5 ((:

Not that bad , sound effects was suspending too !

Storyline wasnt that bad. &Th unborn looked like ju-on (:

OOOPS !

Special someone finally get backs to earthlings.

&Especially his baobei .

He always knew what to do !!

SALUTEEEEES &CLAPPPSSSS!

Train-ed down to main outlet after work ended at nine today.

W.K was walking so damn fast &I almost cant catch up with him !

That's all about it for today (:

Happier with my life now &then .

&my malay name is Syya' risse =x

2010-01-31T02:33:00.004+08:00

Dont drive to drink ,

&You wont drink and drive (:

Well well well , I left work kinda early today.

Went out with xiaojiu

&thn went drinking.

OMG ! I drank a wine that taste like TIGER beer

&It sucks !

Beer sucks ! OMG !

Hoping for my vodka but there isnt any.

Let's chivas thn (:

Xiaojiu drove me back home after that.

&I saw this signboard which wrote ..

Know safety , No pain.
No safety , Know pain.

Something like that uhs . Laughs (:

Hey, A group of successful business man &ladies told me this today .

In life , always remember this .
For everything , It's th power of
choice.
No matter what , as long as it is what i wanna do ,
Give it my best shot !
I'm going to do just that ! They are REAL adults !

&I seriously salute them !

Didnt expect to have a day whereby i could sit down together with those successful business people.

&talked (:

I'm just a simple eighteen year old !

&Im beginning to love just my life &nothing much more!

2010-01-30T05:06:00.008+08:00

First of all , Night out @ cineleisure with Joey.T(:

Went to work , Late for work

&xiaojiu drove me there.

Planning to head back home straight after work

when Joey.T messaged me

&jio me to cine(((:

Got changed , &thn train down to lavender to meet her.

Cabbed down to cine after that.

Catch 'tooth fairy' at 2.2oam.

Rating of th show 4/5 (((:

It's so nice larhs ! It's a must watch readers !

After that , slack @ mac for a while

&i cabbed home.

Joey.T spons my cab fare tonight !

Was wondering ,

Where were you ?

2010-01-29T02:20:00.002+08:00

Thats my xiaojiuma (:

Life was getting in so confusion .

Trying to be as understanding as i can ,

As calm &relax as i wont ):

But still , i felt a hinge of jealousy.

Oh Christ , Bless that i could have the determination to carry on.

He's in my mind right now.

That is a fact i can never deny.

2010-01-28T01:44:00.003+08:00

Life do still have to carry on even if it sucks to th max.

Work was fine today (:

Things are kinda well .

Towards work , fine.

Towards family , should be alrights ?

Towards love , im unsure.

Different matters are giving me different answers now.

CNY is coming.

&I bought two tops for myself.

Looking forward for th night safari trip(:

Well, thats all about it for my daily life.

Following up shall be just a " you can skip this if you want " post.

Life , isnt it all about being wonderful ?
I always thought that life would be.
But now i came to realise ,
It isnt as easy as ABC ,
It isnt as free as freedom ,
It isnt as fine as a 0.18mm pen.
It is tough !
It is confining !
It is strangling !
&Im just being stucked in life .
Confused &Uneasy everyday.
Kids , they are nightmares !
&Im a nightmares .
A nightmares to all .
Thats what i've felt .
For my family , Im a nightmare to them too i guess .
Love , are they for sex ?
Then , What are love ?
Last but not least ,
Family , What are they?
They dont love , they dont care !
So , just tell me ...
Just so , what is a family ? What is love ? &What am i ?

FCUKIT ! FCUK EVERYTHING !

2010-01-26T23:51:00.005+08:00

I shall update the rest of the pictures tomorrow.

Something is wrong with blogger

&I cant upload pictures.

ZZZZZZ !

Anyway , had dinner (:

Playing session at night cancelled.

Went hospital see my ahgong.

Head back home.

Im tired but i miss him .

2010-01-26T11:55:00.002+08:00

Be it a good one or a bad one ,
Let me tell you this , I AM NOT A TISSUE PAPER !

FCUKEDUP !
Im being treated as a tissue paper once again .
&Im very sure that some people are just too free around .
&They began treating people as tissues .
Isnt that so fcuked up ?
Oh Christ , I really do pity them .
Dont understand how come they can just live without guilt .
Or perhaps they do have guilt .
But , xiaorisse DOESNT think so.
Cause she just hope that they could FCUK OFF HER LIFE
&Of course , FCUK OFF &BE DEAD !
They are better off dead you see ,
No point ! NO POINT !
Eh , you ! (Whoever who tio sio)
You've NORIGHTS to do that okays ?
Who do you think you are ?
Just be gone !!!
Alrights , thats all for my say today !
BYEEEEEE READERS !

Boy , Thats all . I know you're and you've been the one who truely loves me after all .

Well , at the very least , you dont treat me as a tissue paper like he did ! HE SUCKS !

2010-01-24T22:00:00.002+08:00

BLOG is dead. Blog is dead !!
Oh ? Havent ?
I better revive it !!!

Here goes .
Well , had been sleeping quite early these days .
I mean , in th room doing my stuffs .
But in everyones' eyes.. Im asleep .
Laughhs .
Went chilling out after work yesterday
&Yeahs ,My vodka.
Drank vodka cranberry last night.
Watch co. playpool .
Went geylang for supper after that .
&Headed back home.
Before before that , wasnt much larhs .
Just a simple word .
SICKED.
Thats all . Laughs(:
Alright ! I have a pu chang to make one of these days.
OMG ! cooking for some special person out there.
Idiot asshole .
Wondering why should i .
Maybe because just special person buhs (:
Anyways , got to say bye today kays ?!
BYEEEEEE READERS !

2010-01-19T20:47:00.001+08:00

Im sicked ! Urghs ! SHIT &SHUTS .

But someone is there to take care of me uh =)

Felt so blessed =D

Why must all this come so sudden ?

Is there really such things as DESTINED ?

Hais . Anyways ...

TIME TO RESSSTTTT MOREEEE =D

bye readers ! short post today !

2010-01-17T02:27:00.002+08:00

There's pasta &potatoes on th table ,
Just right in front of me.
Both are my favourites .
But now , I could only eat one.
I know I've to make a choice this time round.
Pasta ? Potatoes ?
Which one would make me happier ?
Which one ?

Oh God , Please tell me.
Which is the one ?
I've been stressing up with family &love.
I shouldnt be thinking about love life right now.
D: Cries ~
Mummy is angry with me .
The school stuffs is killing me .
Love is strangling me .
I might as well end my life !
OH GOD ! SAVE ME !
Time to sayyyyyyyy ,
GOODBYE READERSSSS D:
May i know , will i be happier if i go with you ?

2010-01-14T14:39:00.001+08:00

Hey readers !
I've taken out mah tagboard again. D:
Sorry for any inconvenience caused (:
But you all could still get to me thru' handphones. (:
If do not have mah new number , Get it from me ohs. (:
Currently feeling so sick &My bed is callinggg me !!!
Byyyyeeee readers !

2010-01-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

The beauty of photographs.

I captured this moment at work todays.

So , I aim to capture all beautiful moments from now on.

Alrights day i have had today !

Feeling sicked up.

Was planning to get an MC.

But raymond took it.

ASSHOLE.

Went to work feeling so SICKEDUP.

Anyways, gonna bloggoff now!

BYYEEEEE READERS !!!

I still miss him lots. But i guess it will be okay .(:

2010-01-12T02:02:00.002+08:00

Time has proven everything.
&Its' time for me to let go.
Im so tired to hangon anymore.
Anyways , Time to start anew :D
Opening shop tomorrow.
Damn tired. =/
CNY is nearing soon.
Im gonna shop for clothes soon !
Have a new colour for mah hair ,
A new hairstyle.
(Already planned a hairstyle :D)
TIME ! I need time !!!
Anyways , BYEEEEEEEE READERS !

2010-01-11T02:09:00.008+08:00

Manage to upload some pictures.

&I know it sucks.

Noones is welcome to drop any comments.

&My day is about picturing !!

Thats really all about it today.

BYEEEEEE READERS !

2010-01-10T22:01:00.003+08:00

Blogging @th office.
There's isnt any cable down here.
So it's like , i cant upload mah photos right now.
I shall upload them up later.
Morning , Went to 'Din Tai Fung'.
With gram , mummy &my lovely boy.(:
Ate the xiaolongbao which i craved badly for so longggg. (:
PEACE !
&Then went back home to collect mah boots.
Paid mah phone bills today.
Cost me fifty bucks. D:
Head down to desker &thn i get mah butt off there.
To C.S (citysquare).
With gram &my boy. (:
Bought something for mah boy &it cost around twenty bucks.
Spend a hundred today.
FCUK ! I shall start planning to save up buhhs.
Thats all about it for now.
Shall update again later on.
Time to say ...
BYYYYYYEEEE readers !

2010-01-09T01:49:00.002+08:00

Was catching 黑糖玛奇朵last night.

&only catch mah lil' wink this morning for an hour.

Went to work as per normal.

Life is getting boring.

This girl above is missing her zhu badly.

But she's probably going to giveup.

She dunno. Maybe? Probaably?

Let fate decides buhs.

Alrights, Got to say byeeee people for now.

BYEEEEEEE !

Take care , I loved you once alrights? I miss you so.

36 days without you. Life is tough but moving on slowly.

2010-01-08T01:33:00.003+08:00

I wanna end this life of mine!
FCUKED!
Ivan came to work today.
Closed of a sales of target hitted.
I am going to giveup soon.
Or have i?
Let fate &time decides what i really want buhs.

Though mah life becomes like a missing puzzle without you,
But i know, it still have to carry on.
&I gonna let go soon , Let go totally.

2010-01-07T02:30:00.002+08:00

Im so tired out from everything.
I need a break.
I wanna get out of this nightmare.
A nightmare that last for 35 days,
All without you.
Heng starts work officially today.
Yahs , Thats all about it buhs.
If im not wrong , Ivan coming to work tomorrow buhs.
Byeeee people !
Im freaked out of life. It sucks!

2010-01-04T04:56:00.002+08:00

I just feel like giving up soon.
Cause Im tired of waiting.
Awaiting for someone to no avail is tough.
Why let me sink deeper when you already know that it's th ending?
I hate th cruel world.
Th cruel reality. ):
34 days without you. Im giving up soon.

2010-01-03T01:30:00.005+08:00

Firstly...

Bananas of the shop unites!

Hahas .(:

Arrange th bananas as you can see , It's like so to death date lerhs.

Got to sell them off quickly!

Days was so and so.

Went home, cancel th plan of mah late night movies.

Ben &Jerry's ice creams are yummy.

SLURPPSSLURPPS.. x)

Bought th hello kitty thing &LOLS.

Cause it's so cute. (((:

Anyway , i post this out because of dumbdumb.

He wanted to see this hellokitty.

So lame. ((((:

BUHBYEEEEEEE people !

2010-01-02T04:45:00.002+08:00

FCUKEDUP!
PISSEDOFF!
How i wish mah zhu was hear to hear mah cries &shouts!
Didnt wanna talk about it.
Was cleaning ahlong's bike.
Ahlong , Raymond &Me.
Working.
I wanna watch "Have you hear about a morgan?"
I dont care! Tonight !
One month One day without you. Life sucks!

2010-01-01T02:26:00.002+08:00

Xiaorisse wishes all readers a HAPPY 2010 !
Yooooooooo !
Im having fun over at workplace with colleagues &co.
Fun with sprays &firecrackers.
BBQ stuffs &fcharcoals.
Running here &there.
Xiaorisse has FINALLY get over 2009
&is now heading towards th future.
She's gonna be one year older.
&A year nearer to death.
New resolutions , New aims.
He's still in my mind.
Be it this or that , i gonna fight fight fight till...
im freakkingly tired out.
I miss you so...
Waiting are th moments that i might breakdown. But im doing it for you.

2009-12-31T02:04:00.001+08:00

SPAMSPAMSPAM pictures &only pictures!

2009-12-31T01:27:00.008+08:00

This are the pictures for th christmas BBQ we had over at workplace.

Took a small picture of xiaojiu's mini too !

Day was packing on all those stuffs.

Even when th sky is falling down~

&I have been hearing this song again &again when talking to dumbdumb.

Oh god!

Hey, Im going to fight for him , fight fight fight.

2010 is coming nearer.

Looking forward to tomorrows' BBQ. OHMYGOD!

Gonna spam pictures again !

HAPPY ADVANCED NEW YEAR READERS!

Days without you , Im trying mah best to forget everythings.

2009-12-30T02:32:00.000+08:00

Day was shaggg.
Fcuk mah life man!
SHUTS!

2009-12-27T23:54:00.003+08:00

Im so lazy to post.
Day was waken up by bendan's phone calls.
Oh mah tian~
I want mah zhuuuuuu.
Pictures still rotting in mah phone.
But im still just so lazy.
What to do ? I shall just leave it as it is then.
28 days without you.. Im really missing you badly.

2009-12-25T05:32:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO! Santa xiaorisse wishes every readers a MERRYCHRISTMAS!
Rounding, Rounding &Rounding.
Went late to work today cause of overslept.
Was talking to cousin &darren lastnight till morning.
J thn message me in th morning lorhs.
Called me while at work.
Thanks God i brought mah earpiece over.
Had a BBQ party over at workplace today with many peoples.
Im so tired to upload any pictures.
So, readers.. will update them soon derhhs.
Went rounding just now with huiwen. co
&Speed way to Geylang cause dear huiwen wants to have her 'tian ji' porridge.
Was all discussing where to go before we manage to settle down on a decision.
140km/hr to changi.
Passby OCH , Chalets.
Reached changi beach in short while.
Went home after that.
&Here i am, blogging in all that i could right now.
I miss mah Roundings life.
I feels like im a fool. Playing a game when the instructions of th game sucks. There's always sweetness in love i thought. But now, whats love? Something that hurts &tears. I hate love , Cause it made me cry. Im still missing you, Do you even know?

2009-12-24T03:14:00.003+08:00

DRINK, DRANK &DRUNK that day.
Looking forward to tomorrow's bbq((:
26 days without you. I love you. ):

I am tired to blog today.
So i will just leave it.

2009-12-22T03:04:00.001+08:00

HappyBirthday xiaorisse.
Turned 17 today.
&Im going to drink , drank &get drunk(((:
Vodka, Vodka, Vodka.
Im in love with Vodka lorhs.
Anyways , so many people wish me!!
&I got 2Red packet.
One year older, One day nearer to death.
Yay Yay, Deathdate, Here i come.

2009-12-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

Im sick &tired of life.
Birthday is reaching soon.
Real soon. (:
Wonder how will it past this year for me.
BORINGGGGGGGGG ~
Spend it...
With family ? With friends ? Or rather , Alone?
24days living without you. Im beginning to lose hope.

2009-12-20T00:50:00.003+08:00

Life was so &so today at work.

Gotten mah pay &FCUK.

Im all left with just a few tens for mahself.

There's a lucky draw at work today.

&Im being th photographer.

Hey, I know mah skills sucks.

But aiyarhs, can can larhs.

Thats about there for mah colleagues derhh pics.

All but zenzen.

She's not there just now marhs. x(((

But anyways, Ahlong is mad.

I think he's taken the wrong medicine today.

Laughs.

Wells, tomorrow will be w.k's last day.

Saddening.

People come &go , so..

Nevermind larhs! Hahahas. (:

Just wish him all th best here buhhs !!!

I got to blog off for today.

Byyyyyyeeee people!

Im waiting for mah mummy's vodka. x) &Xiaorisse is also waiting,

Waiting for him... waiting for death too. ))))):

2009-12-19T03:12:00.002+08:00

First of all , i wanna say a BIGGGGG THANKYOU to ANGIE &ZENZEN from mah workplace.
I've gotten mah ABSOLUTVODKA!!!
So ,
THANKKKKKKYOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Days wasnt as smooth nowadays.
&xiaorisse is having sucidal thoughts.
Shit mans !
Why has xiaorisse become like that?
Where is th cheerful her?
I wanna get drunk,
DEAD drunk.
Cause only like this , could get me away from th cruel reality.
I hate it. , I hate th world.

2009-12-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

Im lazy to post today.
Freaking tired of quarrels.
BYEEEEEEEEE.

2009-12-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

Day was rotting at home.
Didnt went out at all.
Oh mah god!
Practically boring mah time away.
Went over to cousin's house to play audii
&thats all about it till now.

2009-12-17T12:12:00.002+08:00

ZENZEN came to work yesterday!!!
&Heard that she &angie bought me a LE vodka too. (:
OhMYGOD.((:
Damn freaking happy man!
I just didnt expect that mah wish aactually came true lorhs.
Im just happy.
Today is mah off day.
&Im placing &rotting at home.
Ohmygod.
So boring cannns ~
Anyways , Thinking to fetch xiaojean from work later or not.
I gonna blog off for now. :\
Bye peopleeeeees (:
20 days without you here... I need you badly.

2009-12-16T01:43:00.004+08:00

First news , Zenzen &Angie is backkkkkk (((:
Woohooos >.<
&Zenzen is coming to work tomorrow !
YAYYYYYS ((:
That crazy fellow no longer disturbb me.
He better dont.
Siao one , say he fall for me.
EEEEEYYYERRR >.<
I want mah piggggg o0nlys :x
Anyway, found out that zhu is being moodless.
Trying to bring back us together.
Things are slowly getting back on track luhhs .
But i just felt so useless today.
I hate that sucky feeling of mine.
Yarhs , it totally sucks !
Anyways , today i've done area cleaning again!
Outside, Inside &Counter closing . (:
Pack lots of stuffs too.
Hmms, wonder when is mah payday.
I want mah payyyyyyyy (x
Alrights, got to blog off for today.
Im looking forward work for tomorrow. (((:
I know that our memories had been a sweet one.
It had been such a waste that everything between us go so awry.
I hate th past can ?
Cause whenever i think of it , it makes me cry.
I want you , &i need th feeling &lil' actions of yours again to bring me back to life.
I want mah meaningless life set by you.
I want everything.
The reality is definitely so cruel to let everything just end.
Without a sound.
I still miss you , as i had always did.

18 days without you lerhs. I miss you boy.

2009-12-15T01:39:00.002+08:00

I restock today.
Helped weekiang , ahlong do area cleaning.
Hahhas. This ahgirl of yihong minimart is soooo GUAI .(:
Ahlong offered me a ride home but xiaojiu refused.
Shyttts &damn it.
Noone took th key &cant open shop tmr.
Cruel ahlong suggested me to take th spare key from xiaojiu.
Ohgod, still they wanna bully wo to open shop.
So that i could reached there at ONE !!!
Oh mah god, torturing mans!
Love is like a game. There are players &instructions.
Whats the instruction of our game ? Had it ended since that day ?
Or is there a chance to salvage it ? I still love you though i say i dont. Anyway, i miss you boy.

2009-12-14T03:12:00.002+08:00

Xiaorisse's birthday is reaching soon.
&She is having not much feelings about it.
Nothing else she wishes.
But just that one wish.
Wishes do come true rights ?
Do they ?
Let's see.

2009-12-11T01:57:00.002+08:00

Day was tough today!
Had a tiff with jinpo.
Secret withh all mah colleagues got found out by xiaojiu.
&Im so afraid he would be angry.):
Made a deal with zenzen tonight.
I gonna behave!
Got computer to use at work for an hour!!!
ILOVEHER.(((:
Today angie came to work.
&I totally miss her cans!!!
She is th best man!!
Thats why i say ,
ILOVE mah colleagues! (Not referring to J.P today!)
Hmpfs>.< angry him!!!!
Alrights people! I got to blog off. (:

Why has everything turn out to be like this ?
I still miss you even though time had pass by , days had gone by without you.
Life seems to be so meaningless when i know i had to live without you here.
In this cruel reality.
Didnt you say that you want to accompany me walk thru it all ?
I miss you boy... ):

2009-12-10T02:06:00.002+08:00

Day was tough today at work.
Reached there at four.
&news is : Xiaorisse is being late again.
Problem of some people settled. (:
One burden out of mah mind.
Everyday at work was like ,
packing , sealing , tagging , packing , sealing , tagging.
Weighing , entering , cashing.
The same routine everyday!
I feel a though im STUCK with that routine!!
Working is tough man!
But i know i've got to carry on.
Cause i have to move on &not stop down there.
I cant be 17 always huh ?
Mah birthday is coming in 11days.
&i DONT feel like celebrating mah birthday.
Lets not talk about cash.
Even if i've got mah FULL pay , I dont want to celebrate!!!
Meaningless buhs.
My life........
IT SUCKS, yeahs, sucks!
got to blog off, BYEEEEEEEEE ):

2009-12-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

Days were practically boring.
Without him, It seems so uninteresting, so boring.
I miss him, yeah. i know i do.
But im not really telling him anything.
Probably, I just...
Aint the heart he's gonna fixed.
I once need him to fixed mah heart.
Now i still do ,
But let me just...
Let nature take its course buhhhs.
Tired from work today.
I need a break from it!

2009-12-07T02:02:00.001+08:00

I went to work &saw th newcomer i say.
Hmmms, work wasnt any special larhs.
Same old stuffs &all. (:
Pack pack, seal seal, lock lock.
Alrights! got to go.
I still love him. WJYM! missing you~

2009-12-05T03:53:00.002+08:00

I havent been updating this blog often.
Oh god, it might have been dead!
Looks like i should update OFTEN!
Hahahahas .
Yay ! Cousin is back from korea!
I miss her !
House phone cant be called out
so i cant find cousin for now.
BORED!
Today's work was alright larhs.
Closing was done by me today.
I loves all mah colleagues! They are nice adults!.(:
Ray, Angela, Zen, Ahlong, Weekiang &Jinpo. (:
I AM THEIR AHGIRL~
hahahahas. >.<
Alrights larhs , got to go!
Nights reader!
I miss him.

xiaorisse knew that she had grew up. Cause she grew to love. (:

2009-12-03T01:44:00.002+08:00

Updating mah blog again.
It has kind of been dead.
Well, Life still carry on uh ?

Life is meaningful when things occupies your day are meaningful.
Thn , what if there's nothing to occupy your day?
Does it mean that your life is meaningless?

I've been wondering this for th whole day.
&I just come to a conclusion that.
No, mah life will still be meaningful.
As long as i know.
I have a goal, I have a aim.
&He shall be mah light for th dark path.
He, will be mah new aim.
I miss you.

PS: Days has pass &i've not forgotten our past.
But it's time for me to put it as memories.
Cause i know, both of us have to carry on one day.
I've found him. You've found her.
So, let's make a real decision.
Or rather, I make a real decision now.
We will be friends.
One day, we will see each other on th street with both our partners.
And then, we will smile &say...
CONGRATULATION.

2009-12-01T04:01:00.001+08:00

Was damn busy nowadays.
&have got no time for anything.
Miss-ed him is not being left out though.
Had been just me larhs.
Late, late &just late almost everyday.
Lols.
Alrights, got to write off.
Sleeppyyyyyyyy ~
I miss him still , i miss him so.

2009-11-27T02:13:00.002+08:00

Hit sales of three thousand.
Not bad. Not bad.
I got mahself in a flour-ryy state today while packing flour.
Laughh mah lungs off!
Im looking all so white &they are laughing at me!
So bad canns ?!
Thoughts for today:

Misses
Is it worth?
How true is it?
What are we?
Wil it last?

Basically it seems like, everythings' bout him.
Drown in mah PSP games and him.
Oh god!

2009-11-26T02:42:00.001+08:00

Im tired from working today.

&Im missing him.

2009-11-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

I suddenly feel that mah whole family except for one or two ,
Everyone is so damn sucked up
&No sense of moral talking.
URHKKKKS !

2009-11-25T01:32:00.001+08:00

Be there for me always , &not leave me again.
Use another words of love to say i love you to me again.
&It works on me.
Cause i trust , &i believe.
Dont break mah heart.

2009-11-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

Everything ended.
I know.
You dont have to say anything anymore.
I know it clearly.
Unless i got it all wrong ?
I dont think so buhs.
Im tired.
Today, mah colleagues make me smile.
Im going to go to work tomorrow.
Bye peeps !

2009-11-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

End work early today at 9pm.
Train home straight with ahlong.
Didnt do much stuffs.
Im tired from a lot of things.
No hopes anymore.

2009-11-22T01:43:00.002+08:00

Today's tiring.
Mood swings.
Tomorrow gonna work again.
Oh god, save me.
Not concentrative enough today.
Kept pressing wrong amount ,
Wrong stuffs,
&Everything simply goes wrong.
Watch show today
&pack lots of stuffs.
But still , im missing him !

2009-11-21T02:40:00.002+08:00

Working.
Busying.
Picturing.
No mood to do anything but still
Missing.
Tearing.
Loving.
Thinking.
All for him.
No mood.
Got to go.
Bye peoples!

2009-11-20T03:37:00.006+08:00

These are th pics i took using xiaojiu's N97 today while on th way to work x)

2009-11-20T01:04:00.003+08:00

I know i aint happy.
I know im not happy.
I know i wont be happy.
But still, Im trying to hangon just for him.

I know im upset.
I know im crying.
I know im sulking.
But still, Im trying to staystrong just for him.

No more hour.
No more minute.
No more second.
No more all this for him.

Xiaorisse isnt happy now. She need more time...
Need more more more time for him. )):

2009-11-19T00:57:00.002+08:00

Today.
Tired out.
But somehow brighten up when i received a call from Zhu after mah tiring day.
Skip mah dinner today.
Went home after work.
Fried an egg , cook cup noodle.
Ate it.
&here im bloggin in.
At th same time, not forgetting... i miss him. <333

2009-11-18T09:28:00.002+08:00

UPDATED NEWS!
Xiaorisse had found herself a new job with her uncle.
But th condition would be NO phone allows during working time.
OHMYGOD!
Xiaorisse cant survive with this planning.
Working had already taken her time away from meeting zhu
&Now she cant even use phone?!?!
Xiaorisse is seriously unhappy with this planning.
Very unhappy but there is nothing she could say.
Because they want her to work there.
&She dont understand why.
Xiaorisse is thinking a lot right now
&Its time she feels she should blog off.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEE !!

2009-11-17T12:51:00.002+08:00

LATEST UPDATE ON XIAORISSE'S BLOG! (:

Peo-ple ,
I placed a TAGBOARD.
Let's see who's th first to tag yeahs? Xiaorisse has th sudden urge to stable down in life.

Find a job
Find a tiongxim Boyf
Stable down
Get married
Have sex
Give birth
Go travelling
Enjoy life

Yeah, xiaorisse said that she's ready.She's just waiting for her tiongxim Boyf to come along.(:Oh god, Cant believe im having these plannings. I guess I've already grewup. xDDYeah, Grewup.((:

2009-11-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

Im quitting smoking.
Because someone says he hate smokers. xD

2009-11-15T11:54:00.003+08:00

Someone is hiring me! for a pay of $1200 per month.
&Im considering it now.
Th current job im having, th pay was low &its boring mah time away mostly.
Work environment wise, its not very good lehs.
So many ** there &i will feel uneasy derh!
Zhu know what it is horhs ?
Laughhs.
Im boring mah day away today.
Without reporting to work.
Probably gonna drop this job soon.
It is really killing me.
Maybe i shall get a new job soon ?
Yeah, a new job.

2009-11-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

Im sick &tired.
Tired from crying.
Enough of everything.
Bye peo-ples.

2009-11-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

This are th pics i took yesterday when im bored &missing mah pig (((:

It has been so long since i ton th night out.
I miss mah nightlife.
Seriously i do miss it.
Im gonna find one of these days to ton again.
I am. But before that , i better make sure he isnt angry. xD

2009-11-13T18:12:00.003+08:00

Im really sick this time round.
Kept vomitting out whatever i had eaten
&its disgusting , YUCKS !
Im feeling sick &wobbly all over.
Just wanna lie down on th bed &POM !
But i just cant get asleep.
Fcuk !
Im tired to post again today.
Anyway , i miss him .(:

2009-11-13T13:14:00.005+08:00

Oh god ! I havent been working nowadays.
Hmms, stayed home tonight &thats all.
Didnt plan to meet anyone.
Thats it. Maybe finding Zhu tonight!
I have been a Taxi-holic &Shopa-holic nowadays.
Money, money, money.
Shit mans ! I aint rich !

2009-11-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

I didnt went to work.
Just had a walk around with Yun &meet up with Soon.
Arcade off mah anger out in Zone-X.
Had a little thing with Zhu.
&Now, im tired. officially tired.
BYYYYYEEEE PEOPLE.

I entrust mah emotions to you. Take care of it.

2009-11-12T00:06:00.002+08:00

Today sales was quite good.
Not quite, It's better. (:
Laughhs.
Saw joanne peh too.
Messaging Zhu all th way.
There are so many happy things today!
For me to know &for me to know!
Laughhs.
Im not thinking when im posting.
Im just not thinking!
I guess i've accidentally pissed someone off &Thats it!
Im sorry.
There was a little bit problem just now &sighhs.
I've got no mood to post right now.
Anyway, overall mood for today...
Im all SMILES because of Zhuuu !
You better meant what you say today. xD

承诺，不是说许下就会完成. 只是希望这不是说说就算了的话.

2009-11-11T00:30:00.003+08:00

Train down to P.S to meet Soon &I almost lost mah way.
Oh god! So kumgong canns ?!
Laughhs. (:
Got shoot by Soon th whole day.
What th fcuk?!
Laughhs. Bought rose for his girlf
&We cabb down to Queensway to fetch Yun.
On th way there, Im laughing th whole journey in cabb.
Th uncle is so cool! He brought his wife along to work.
So kawaiii .((((:
Received some messages from Zhuu today &That makes me smile.
Bus-ed home after that.
Didnt send Yun straight to her door today.
Was having headache.
Went straight home after that &Zhu commented :" Guai <3".
Laughhs.(:
Zhu was also having bad headache &he went to sleep lerhs.
Zhuuu, you better rest well larhs. &take good care of your tongue! stupid you xDDD
Now, Im blogging in agains.
And, ended.

You had been so random today. Really random. But you really made mah day!! You're being miss-ed.((:
你来的时候，也许...是对的吧!

2009-11-10T13:16:00.003+08:00

Didnt report to work today.
Neither did i go out.
Im SICKED.
terribly sick &th sickly feeling SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!
Just wish that i will be well again tomorrow.
Im planning to move out.
Find a place, Moved out !
Quick ! Begins mah action plan TODAY!
Hmm, was damn rotting at home luhs.
Not going out.
Zhuu said that i should RESTTTTTTT~
&maybe he didnt realise that i was BORED.
oh god! So i will be playing com th whole day ?
WOW! Thats cool &amazing.
No audition , No maple.
Nothing ! but just websites &only websites.
Due to that it is a Laptop,
I cant download games. Shitty lorhs!
Was just waiting for Zhu to get home! Then i wont be BORED!
xDDD tsktsk.

2009-11-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

Feverish feeling totally sucks.
My pack of marlboro is left with 4sticks.
&Soon was telling me, wahhh... someone going to quit lerhh lehs.
Shyts ! 4more sticks
&i gonna say " Ye RuiSi , you can smoke NOMORE. "
No more cigg in mah life.
But Zhu ! Being th first hand is better thn th second marhs. x)
Joking only luhhs !
I will quit derhhs. Dont worry. I give you mah words.
Today was damn tired at work.
I slept at mah workplace.
Sales wasnt good at all.
Thats just so boring to hear huhs?
Went straight back home after work.
Guai huhs ?
Chat with Zhuzhu in msn till he went to sleep early.
And here i am, blogging in mah daily life.

I hate being sick but i know zhu, you will take care of me derhh horhs ? Laughhs ! You're being Miss-ed !
你好象他但我知道你不是。你也不会是。至少，你在乎我的每一个感受。你没有neglected我。

2009-11-09T09:08:00.004+08:00

Damn it! Every plans on tuesday SPOILED.
Which means i have to go to work!
Which means i need to wakeup early!
Zhuuu message me today morning.
Was so damn happy luhhs actually.(:
Things are back to normal already between me &Zhuuu.(:
Sooooo happy luhhhhs (((((((:
Zhuuu, Im not going to do that again alrights?
Which also means that Im not going to make you angry lerhs!
Hear that? Im not.
Laughs.
Hmmms, actually today planning to go out with cousin derhs.
But at last ? Fcuk larhs.
Well, in th end..
I just have to go to work.
One word, BOREDDDDDD~

I realise your importance only that day when i almost lost you. Im not going to have that day again. &I will never have it.

2009-11-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

IM GOING TO BEAT AHSOON IN TEKKEN6 ! JUST WAIT &SEE!!
hmpfs! spend 12 rounds of tekken with Soon today at vivo. Damn it!
see? I told you im going to post it out big on blog!
Wasnt really in a good modd th whole of today &yeahs, it lies within him.
Today is mah off &yet i didnt quite really enjoy it!
I brought mah pinky pooh bear to vivo today!
Was nonsencing about in th bus back to queensway
&Soon actually ignored me!
What the hell.
Was missing zhuuu th whole day &i just find him weird today.
I know its bad to think too much but i just cant help but to...
THINK THINK THINK!
It is really sucky to know nothing but nothing.
At least if i could know whats happening,
i wouldnt be so stressup !
I dont like to be stress. I dislike th feeling a lot!
Zhuuuu, If only you get to read this post. I guess you would.
Zhuuuu, I would have to let you know that you are equally important.
No matter what, i've change a lot.
&I know i really did this time.

Lessen mah smoking.
No longer skip my meals.
Didnt ton th night out so much anymore.
Go home straight after work.
Try mah best to save up.
Plannings to quit smoking.

Though i dunno what is happening between th both of us today.

Th atmosphere in between had been cold. Really cold this time.

I really hope everything would be back to normal agains.

You know how i feel rights? i know you knew.

A Big Sighh~ Had a huge quarrel with mummy & thats it!

Im beginning to runaway from reality agains.

I know it isnt th right choice. But what?

No more other choice. cause th only choice left for me is to FACEIT!

which i will never never want that choice at all! NEVER!

I hate mah life. Yahs, &I hate myself.

I hate myself if one day i lose you. Cant say thats love because i knew thats not. I hate my life now &you brighten it up for me. Now you seems not to care anymore, Theres noone else to light it up for me. Its dark &gloomy but theres no torchlight arounds. There used to be you to light th way, but i seem to lose this light for me to see. No longer there i think. No longer there i feel. I hope its all a nightmare. &when i wokeup, it will still be mah dream, mah fantasy, mah falalas which im always in. I know its just a short while, but i dun wan this even if its just a second. Cause i know im lost right now. Im lost &Im beginning to hate mahself. I really hate mahself. Just to let you know, mah heart is having its asthma now &you have unknowingly be mah asthma pump.): Imissyou , I really miss you.

2009-11-08T01:45:00.008+08:00

Nuer &Mummy. (: Naughty us.

So boring lorhs.

Nuer snap me !

Thats us !

Sheena &Risse. ((:

Mum &Daughter in Camera 1, 2, 3 !

So boring. Begins Our zilian -.-

Thats mah dressing for work today!!

Ohs !

Blweahhhs xDDD

Nuer , ILOVEYOU girl !

Zhuuuuu , i felt unwanted by you today .))):

Im missing you zhuuuu . )):

Dressing for work today . (((:

Dont ever make me shed any tears For you.

Yeruisi is staying strong at her best !Illusion-ed.

Im afraid of so many things.

Me &Nuer is like so bored lorhs in th middle of th night.

I didnt Drink drank drunk.(:

Laughhs. Im cheered up by her. (: &Someone else.

xDDD only me &nuer knew who is it!

Nuer, thanks for being there! Iloveyou!

Stuffs myself with so many food just now.

Smoke twice today. ):

Yeahs , tomorrow off day !!!

Find mah zhuuu up ? see first buhhs !! tsktsk*

不知不觉中，你已成为我生命中的一个重要的人。

2009-11-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

Im dead tired from working.
Yawns.
Later going out to drink agains.
SHIT me !
urghs !

ZHUUUUUU ! ^(..)^
this part is specially written for you derhhs. Zhuuu , im sorry alrights ? didnt want to quarrel with you derhhs. But really, there's no time to eat just now.
Cant leave th shop marhs. Noone to buy food for me too ! Im sorry larhs. I mean mah words not to skip meals unreasonably anymore.

today sales totally SUCKS!
mood also totally sucks!
Nothing is going well today.
Tomorrow will be mah off day!
Permanent Sunday off !
hmms, thats sounds a good one yeahs ?
at least for saturdays are TONNING out !!
LOLs.
Well, Im tired. &Im going out soons.
Gonna Drink, Drank &Drunk.
God bless that there isnt any hangovers for me tomorrow !
Bye peepos!

I dont wanna lose anyone. I had lose more thn enough lerhs. Just wish that everything is just staying on. If one day it leaves, I will just stand there. Watching it go away &not chase after it anymore. Be it this or that, remember this. You are one that i care. &Perhaps one day, it will thn change to love.

2009-11-04T15:33:00.012+08:00

Im being so random nowadays.

Thats Jeann &me ! I love her !

At Jeann house blogging in.

The days seems to be flying fast.

Watch a movie with Jeann &Lachron.(:

Sisters' keeper.

It's a nice show luhhs. Not that bad.
Touching. &Sad.

Cinema should be like giving away tissues.

Even if they would want to charge it i've got nothing to says.

But really, so many people cried just now.

Lachron &me was like...

Laughing aways.

I know we are bad luhhs. But its really funny at that moment.

Messaging zhuuuu all th way.

Actually intended to pei Yun go reporting derhs.

But end up she says she go alone!

What th... sighhs.

So I ended up in Jeann house.

Pics quite a tons today.(:

Didnt eat th whole morning.

Still, not feeling any hungrier.

Planning to meetup with zhuuuu, ended up plann FAILED. ):

Postponed the plan to friday and yarhs, friday.

Friday thn meetup with him buhhs.

Bought a pack of fagg today.

Spons Lachron two sticks.

hmms, im left with fifteen now. 15 !~ .(:

Gonna quit after this pack.

Smoking isnt good for health you know.

Laughs.

Alrights peo-ple, Gonna blog off lerhs.

Take care readers !

I just hope this wont be another game. Lets us just let nature take its course. I think im beginning to have a liking towards you boy. Though not towards love, but its a liking. I dont know how to break it out in words. But thats how i feel buhhs. You know it, Dont you ? Im not into a relationship now. Cause you know what im afraid about ?

2009-11-03T16:39:00.002+08:00

Currently at cousin's house blogging.

Had been with Yun &Soon these days.

Why?

Because they're with me that day when im upset.

Thanks lots yeahs girl &boy. (:

Yesterday accompany Soon to interview.

Interview PASSED! grats yeahs? ^.^

My lovely zhuuuu had been with me too. (: Pei me all th way when im upset ; happy &bored.

I have been sick nowadays.

urghhs. Hate the sickly feeling luhhs.

Had been also having mah regular meals nowadays.

Still waiting for mah job interview results.

Hmmms, hope everything goes alrights ! Jiayous!

wokeup damn early that day just for mah zhuuuu &he is still late.

~~Hate~~ him ahhs ! laughhs.

Stupid zhuuuu .((((:

Been random nowadays. Even mah zhuuu says so. =x

Im beginning to treat him good.

He promised to treat me better too. ((:

Hey zhuuuu , you better meant it horhs!

ASSHOLES!! xDDD tsktsk!

Head was spinning round &round today.

Spam mah stomach with four panadols in th morning. Worst still, a empty stomach.

Got lectured by zhuuuu &i wont do it again!

Met up with Min &she accommpany me to go JP2.

walkwalk, jokejoke, talktalk.

Decided to go her house for a while to blog in mah days.

Days are being happier nows.

Things are getting back on th right track for me.

Headed back home super early that day.

9am ! can ue believe it ?! oh god!

But im better nows(: More well-behaved.((:

You're there when i need you. But is this another game that im in?

2009-11-01T21:33:00.002+08:00

It sucks when you know you're hurt.
It sucks when you know you're misunderstood.
It sucks when you know together, your friends turned their back on you.
It sucks too when you know everything is just a game.

Life has been random nowadays.
Yeahs, me too.
Being random most of the times.
I want mah zhuuuuuuu xP
Im drink , drank &drunk.
Hate that feeling.
Sniff glue ? Nah, not towards that stuffs lerhs.
Just a word for th past few days kays ?
" SUCKS "
Yeahs, thats th word for everything.
Alright peo-ples, gonna blog off lerhs.

<It's th time. Th time for it.

2009-10-27T16:11:00.002+08:00

MAO XIAN CENTRE = marks &spencers ?
Laughhs, someone create a joke that day.
I shall kept his privacy xDDD
But its like so funny lorhs.
hmms, days has been sucky nowadays.
Firstly ,Mummy didnt intend to let me back.
Secondly ,Ganqing whom i dotes on left me.
6 months, i will wait for her to come out &enjoy with me agains. ):
Thirdly ,Im currently forcing mahself to do something i didnt want to.
Fourthly ,xiaojiu doesnt seems interested to hire me.
Interview FAILED!~
Spoke to Jy last night too! Talked about so many things.
Planned something with her.. SECRETS*
My engine breaks down last night with Rongkorkor.
Before i go meet him at tiong bahru, my engine breaks down.
I guess its because too many things has happen lerh barhhs.
Erzi is sicked. Hmm, pei him go see doctor yesterday.
Eh, stupid erzi.. you better take care of your own health horh!
If not i will take away the surprise.
His doctor is so COOOLLLL lorhs!
Wahahas.
PK snake with him &i bet he loses.
xDDD so bad de mama also got huh ?
Eh erzi , i will beat you in audi derhhs.
Let me train back my skills xP
That day pei erzi and emerson go drinkdrink.
ended up merlion-ing is emerson.
Emerson !!! hahas. ehs, you take care of your own body larhs.
Dont drink so much cans? ownself know what is happening to your own body.
Dont want help yourself, noone could help you.
anyways, take care buhs ! thanks for th tagg .(:
alrights, im going back to audi. (: update laters peo-ples !

I knew how much you love me boy, but when its time for you to let go, you should. I dun want you to get hurt by me again. Hope you understand why am i doing all this. If being the bad guy im hurting you more, Im sorry.

2009-10-25T09:58:00.002+08:00

BLOODBLOOD, im sorry.):
i overslept today &ended up didnt fetch her from girls home.
Im so disappointed over mahself !
Wellwell, later probably meeting angah! finally she's out!
Gotta meether.
So for now, i got to go bathe!
Update later peo-ples!!

2009-10-25T00:24:00.004+08:00

Finally get to blog in again.
Pester mah xiaojiu for many days. &today he finally brought home!
Hahas. tomorrow i will be fetching mah bloodblood.(:
6hours counting down to leave the house.
Wow! tomorrow i will be leaving th house at 7am lorhs. waking up at 6.30am.(((:
Laughhs lorhs! its so early cans ?!
Hmms, metup with jonas just now at ganqing's house.
I WONT AVOID ANYMORE LERHS !
its so bad to treat someone i treasure like this.

I APOLOGISE TO YOU ! DUIBUQI ! IM SORRY !

hmms, you should know who you are buhhs.
Days are passing at an average speed.
Yesterday spoken to mah mummy.
Well, was kind of pissed off but hopefully i guess, we're getting better.
Perhaps, Absence makes th heart grows fonder?
Whatever it is.. friends are planning something tomorrow.
I dunno how should i feel about it. Felt so guilty somehow.
But sighhs, guys, do what you all want alrights ?
Will th plan succeed i dont know..
Hopefully it does? or will it not ?
Anyway, ALL TH BEST to whoever is in th plann !

JIAYOU! JIAYOU! JIAAYOOUUUUU !!

Heard that he is married lerhs. But divorced again. Thn that time what he told me, are obviously sweettalks. He still didnt change. Two years ago, He is like that. Two years later, he is still th same. Thankful to God that i didnt fall for his trap again this time round. I hate him. &this time, i really did hate him. I did it. Forgotten him, his love to me is nothing. Maybe i shouldnt have done all things to hurt mahself because of him. Hmms, Im heaving a sigh of relief now. Im out from his world. &He is no longer in mah heart.

2009-10-23T12:45:00.002+08:00

Thats mah ganqing. thats her.(:

Blogging in again.(:

hey! i have been reviving mah blog nowadays.

Feeding it with posts &all stuffs.

laugh.(:

Got lectured once again by erzi.

Im lost at that point of time

&i was shocked larhs.didnt blamed him for anything but just was shocked to hear that from him.

sighs, maybe just have to bucked up buhhs.

Whatever it is, i cant 自暴自弃!

Th more they wanna look down on me,

th more i have to prove them wrong.

Planning to later was BLANKED!

Unsure of later.

Today is friday lerhs!

fetching mah bloodblood out this sunday!!! WOOHOOS!

looking forward to this sunday.

It seems like so many planning.

going out with korkor &bloodblood.

at night drinking &fagging.

morning shopping , night fagging aways.

LAUGHS. planning fulled huh ?

hopefully i could get mah three hundred bucks luhhs.

if not how to drink lehs?!

STRESSEDDD ~

2009-10-22T17:03:00.002+08:00

Freaked out!
Totally alrights?!
urghs! im just sick &tired of mah own family.
Be it now or what, i just have to stand alone.
I dont want to be alone liao canns?
I hate to be alone.
I dun wan to be alone cans?
sighhs, But im trying mah best to get used to it again.
Went to LOT1 again with jean.co.
ate pizzahut &th waiter is so funny.
ask to refill water, he go take chilli sauce for us.
serve to th table &we looked at each other blankly &laughs.
I know i was practically bad. But i just cant help it larhs.(:
Sean's birthday today. bought a cake for him.
maybe later buying fagg.(:
had been fagging nowadays.
Planning to ton at ECP tonight. Not confirmed.
Unsured plans.
Hmms, now currently at cousin's house. Celebrating Sean's birthday luhs.
I suddenly find mah cousin's house more lively thn mine.
When will i find mah family love?
I want to have it cans?

Im avoiding. Avoiding so many things that is happening. Can I have someone to be by my side? I know I need someone badly now. But I sees noone approaching me. Noones. Once again, Im feeling so alone. Im being alone. And I know, th whole night.. Im going to be alone. My cries was heard by noone. Noone sees how i control &kept mah tears up. Forget it, Im xiaorisse. Just me alone, just me.

2009-10-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

That would be me. Im feeling kind of lonely nowadays again.

Thats jeann and me.(:

Boredom is filling mah life up these days.
Thats all life is about for me.
Been thinking a lot &simply cracking mah brain up.

One day, i gonna have brain cancers &i know th reason perfectly.

My brain cells is dying from th speed im having mah thoughts.

Im seriously tired from everything.

I need a break.

Yeahs, a break..

2009-10-21T15:38:00.002+08:00

MAH BLOG IS DYING!!
it has been so long ever since i last update alrights? no com, no nothing.
life is getting boring huhs?
previously mah life is all bout cycling &just cycling.
now, mah life is all about train-ing &bus-ing.
oh gosh! family is with problems nowadays.
blames &accuses are placed on me.
&i just hate it alrights?!
urghhks! it simply sucks larhs.
maybe to those adults, im just a bad kid in their wonderful eyes.
i just cant be perfect to them.
yeahs! im an imperfect girl, borned in a perfect family.
&th feeling just sucks. i cant &will never be perfect!
why? im not them!
seriously im not marhs.
what they want me to do?
placing stress &a different kind of judgement they give.
oh gosh! how i wish i didnt know anything about that larhs.
does they even know what i want?
in th past, now... &i guess for th future.
it wil be like that buhhs.
just a home. a home for me to stay.
nothing else.
no love no nothing.
this is what they give.
so now, this is what i am.
sighhs. im just had had enough with mah own life.
why? too many things had happen &im just trying mah best to cope with it.
hmms.. days are just going round &round with th same people &yeahs.
thats all its about.
been around cck nowadays.
not heading over to east &im stucked at this particular place.
LOT1!!!
i want to sign line larhs. waiting for mah ahgong or whoever to help me.
now that things turned out so awry, i guess mah line... BYEBYE!!
neverminds luhhs.
i had been kind of an emotional these days &friends around are trying to buck me up, pulling me back to mah own feet.
i appreciate what they did. i did!!
sighhs~ im like back to mah old self wherebys i felt alone most of th time.
i need someone elses company! but noone had been there.
relating to cousin nowadays &i seems to be losing everyone around.
friends, family..
i seems to be losing them.
but they were around lehs.
ive been tryiing to avoid.
maybe because i do not want anymore misunderstandings to happen.
i dislike misunderstanding.
really dislike it a lot.
because of misuderstandings, so many unhappy things happen.
now, im avoiding it.
im afraid cans?
im a human too!
im not a robot, im a human.
can you all just understand me for once?
sighhs.
im tired &totally just freaked out.
i know i shouldnt avoid anyone, anything.
but maybe give me some time to cope with all problems.
i still treasure you all, but really..
dun misunderstands me anymore cans?
cause th misunderstanding is not what you thought it is.
please clarify whatever you want with me,
rather thn jumping into any other conclusions in your own world.
cause to me, clarification is much much more better thn losing someone unknowingly.
especially someone whom i treasures.
sighhs~~~
mah world seems to be getting darker &darker day by day.
i dunno why.
but just it.
anyway, thanks for being there by mah side girls &bunks.
thanks lots guys!!
THOSE WHO YOU KNOW YOU ARE IN MAH TREASURED LIST!!
guys, you're those who are special to me in some ways and rather.
i hope our friendship would last long long yeahs? thanks for being there by mah side &going through with me th hard times that im having right now with mah family. you all know mah stuffs better thn th rest. please, please, do not ever make me feel as though i treasured th wrong person. thanks you!
i treasures you all.((((:

2009-10-15T13:44:00.002+08:00

yawns~
got waken up by that MEIYOULIANGXIN de erzi!
im sleepy. thats it!
yesterday, metup with jonas first thn meet friends.
SHE BULLY ME! strangle me in the middle of the station lorhs -.-
eh! you better watch your back!! hmpffs>.< i will strangle ue back one day de horhs ))):
went lot one and i bought a doraemon for niuniu.(: laughhs.
yesterday went gym &swimming.
i cracked mah body foam bottle. so self blamed alrights?!haiyos. cycled th whole of cck &mah leg is breaking!
seriously it is.
urghs. conference with jy, jonas.co until must redial so many times lorhs.
grandma just behind me. thanks god she didnt nag. xP
todays' planning.
heading down to orchard with jy, jonas &moremoremore people.
ooos. big group uh?
so long didnt go out with more thn five people lerhs.
LAUGHHS.(:
train down to payalebar to meetup with jy first.
hey! i bought faggfagg below her house &guess what!? can alrights? i PASSED !!
lols. i know im being lame now..
hmms, now waiting for jy to get ready her stuffs &soon, going to head down to orchard.(:
once again, im blogging in down at jy house(:
Everything seems to be moving fast whereas im still behind th tracks.
Moving at mah own pace alone. I thought this time when mah sorrows pay a visit to me, i will be alone again. But i guess i was wrong. My friends was here with me. Though Im no longer crying, but im not feeling any happier. I dunno why. Whats actually bothering me? I watch th time ticking away day by day. His shadow also moving further, or rather, disappeared lerhs. yarhs, finally, he totally disappeared. I, standing alone down there, is moving into mah own world agains. Im no longer trap in him neither am i trap anywhere.(: im happy enough to be free. though im smiling so much no more, but im really grateful for those who lend me their ears these days. im walking mah life like a wrecked track but mah friends actually shift th track back to its original space. Because of this, im staying strong.
im standing strong. cant fall.. because it will only let those who care for me down.(:
but anyway, thanks for everything guys!!