I've change my link . Please get it from me thru msn or messages !! .

My blog could have been declared dead .
I shall revive it once again .
There's nothing much else to say .
Had been having high fever nowadays .
&It's tormenting !!.
Wish that he was here , but i know he wont .
Leave it buhs , let it be .
I love him still ,
Thats all i can whisper .

I've been waiting , &I've never stopped waiting .

SHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!
I know , i know.
I havent been posting nowadays.
But but but , will just have a short updates this time.
Confused situation in love life with baby
&&Thats all it takes to make me NO LIFE !!
No no no, Dont tell me 'infatuation'.
Because it's not .
I've done a lot for him
&Now , im just waiting .
Silly me. For you , I will stay silly always .

*8days already . ):

At times , Im just so tired to speak.
But seriously ,
All i wanna know is ...
Do you know me or not ?

Day was alrights .

Going out later.

&&&Shall update more thn.

3 more days to go to night safari with R.K.K (((: YIPPPPEEEEEEE !!

*Do i matters to you or not ? Or rather , Do you even bother to care?*

STUPID BLOGGER !
I cant upload pictures again .
FINE !!!
Shall update tmr.
Nothing special today .
But just things that pissed me off !
*I wonder , who is syya'risse to you ? Does she even mean anyting more thn your activities?*

I felt as though im not th one for you .):
Why are these thoughts going through my mind th whole day ?
I really dont understand .
How i wish that i could get rid of them ,
Get rid )):
Do you really cares whether you have me or not ?

我想要拥有一种永远都不让我感觉到一丝丝寂寞的东西。
而，那就是爱(:
Colleague came &drive me to work today.
I came back home
&&Im kinda tired.
Misses someone a lot (: I miss you!
Time to say '
BYE READERS !

Spend a BOMBBBBB lastnight .
&I reached home this morning .
Slept for four hours plus
&&I headed to work.
Was damn tired .
Anyways , Shall update tomorroww (:
BYYYYYEEEEEE READERS !!!

*Going shopaholic with xiaojean next week for heels .(: *

Powerhouse , Zirca , Powerhouse , Zirca !!
*Screammms*
I wants to have that fun also cans ?
Shuts my working life.
Nothing else but work all day long .
SHUTS luhs !
Neverminds . Update tomorrow.
I wanna take your hands , &walk thru' all th hard times together (:

有些事只有用心，才能感受到它的重要性。
Im tired to speak tonight .
Just one sentence , to make known everything.
Im trying my best , give me some time.
Alrights ,
Let's just all get to bed readers !!
Byyyyyyeeeee readers !

I've booked my tickets to night safari with R.K.K (:
Looking so forward to it oh(:
Twelve days more (:

Camwhoring today .

There are actually more .

But I am just too lazy to upload them .

Spend over two hundred bucks today .

Oh mans !

Feeling feverish

&Im gonna say BYYYYYEEEEEEE now ~

HAPPY TWO MONTHS !!
I promised i would post this in blog .
Now that i did , Alrights !! (:
xiaoR will be heading town today !
That will be the itinery for th day (:
Alrights , shall blog in later of th day buhs (:

To describe today , just one simplified word .
SUCKYSS !
Zen drove me to work today morning.
I almost got up late.
I just find as though i dont want to get up.
Reached workplace.
Someone said that he's going to get me a Rina Ricci perfume!
Nice smell :D
I got to find out about my pay today.
Guess what ?!
I only got eight hundred bucks !
Shuts !
Day wasnt as pleasant at work today.
At night , He called me up &chat (:
Just for everything today ,
I love that part best (((:

Trying to upload those sweet &nice photos with my dear boyboy

But blogger just let me upload this pathetic one !

EEEEEEEEK !!

Day at work today was alrights .

I was super damn late for work

&They said somethings which hurts me badly.

But i just kept quiet .

At times i just simply wonder ,

Why ? &Just why ?

Watched th unborn today at work.

Rating for that show was 4.5/5 ((:

Not that bad , sound effects was suspending too !

Storyline wasnt that bad. &Th unborn looked like ju-on (:

OOOPS !

Special someone finally get backs to earthlings.

&Especially his baobei .

He always knew what to do !!

SALUTEEEEES &CLAPPPSSSS!

Train-ed down to main outlet after work ended at nine today.

W.K was walking so damn fast &I almost cant catch up with him !

That's all about it for today (:

Happier with my life now &then .

&my malay name is Syya' risse =x

Dont drive to drink ,

&You wont drink and drive (:

Well well well , I left work kinda early today.

Went out with xiaojiu

&thn went drinking.

OMG ! I drank a wine that taste like TIGER beer

&It sucks !

Beer sucks ! OMG !

Hoping for my vodka but there isnt any.

Let's chivas thn (:

Xiaojiu drove me back home after that.

&I saw this signboard which wrote ..

Know safety , No pain.
No safety , Know pain.

Something like that uhs . Laughs (:

Hey, A group of successful business man &ladies told me this today .

In life , always remember this .
For everything , It's th power of
choice.
No matter what , as long as it is what i wanna do ,
Give it my best shot !

I'm going to do just that ! They are REAL adults !

&I seriously salute them !

Didnt expect to have a day whereby i could sit down together with those successful business people.

&talked (:

I'm just a simple eighteen year old !

&Im beginning to love just my life &nothing much more!

First of all , Night out @ cineleisure with Joey.T(:

Went to work , Late for work

&xiaojiu drove me there.

Planning to head back home straight after work

when Joey.T messaged me

&jio me to cine(((:

Got changed , &thn train down to lavender to meet her.

Cabbed down to cine after that.

Catch 'tooth fairy' at 2.2oam.

Rating of th show 4/5 (((:

It's so nice larhs ! It's a must watch readers !

After that , slack @ mac for a while

&i cabbed home.

Joey.T spons my cab fare tonight !

Was wondering ,

Where were you ?

Thats my xiaojiuma (:

Life was getting in so confusion .

Trying to be as understanding as i can ,

As calm &relax as i wont ):

But still , i felt a hinge of jealousy.

Oh Christ , Bless that i could have the determination to carry on.

He's in my mind right now.

That is a fact i can never deny.

Life do still have to carry on even if it sucks to th max.

Work was fine today (:

Things are kinda well .

Towards work , fine.

Towards family , should be alrights ?

Towards love , im unsure.

Different matters are giving me different answers now.

CNY is coming.

&I bought two tops for myself.

Looking forward for th night safari trip(:

Well, thats all about it for my daily life.

Following up shall be just a " you can skip this if you want " post.

Life , isnt it all about being wonderful ?
I always thought that life would be.
But now i came to realise ,
It isnt as easy as ABC ,
It isnt as free as freedom ,
It isnt as fine as a 0.18mm pen.
It is tough !
It is confining !
It is strangling !
&Im just being stucked in life .
Confused &Uneasy everyday.
Kids , they are nightmares !
&Im a nightmares .
A nightmares to all .
Thats what i've felt .
For my family , Im a nightmare to them too i guess .
Love , are they for sex ?
Then , What are love ?
Last but not least ,
Family , What are they?
They dont love , they dont care !
So , just tell me ...
Just so , what is a family ? What is love ? &What am i ?

FCUKIT ! FCUK EVERYTHING !

I shall update the rest of the pictures tomorrow.

Something is wrong with blogger

&I cant upload pictures.

ZZZZZZ !

Anyway , had dinner (:

Playing session at night cancelled.

Went hospital see my ahgong.

Head back home.

Im tired but i miss him .

Be it a good one or a bad one ,
Let me tell you this , I AM NOT A TISSUE PAPER !

FCUKEDUP !
Im being treated as a tissue paper once again .
&Im very sure that some people are just too free around .
&They began treating people as tissues .
Isnt that so fcuked up ?
Oh Christ , I really do pity them .
Dont understand how come they can just live without guilt .
Or perhaps they do have guilt .
But , xiaorisse DOESNT think so.
Cause she just hope that they could FCUK OFF HER LIFE
&Of course , FCUK OFF &BE DEAD !
They are better off dead you see ,
No point ! NO POINT !
Eh , you ! (Whoever who tio sio)
You've NORIGHTS to do that okays ?
Who do you think you are ?
Just be gone !!!
Alrights , thats all for my say today !
BYEEEEEE READERS !

Boy , Thats all . I know you're and you've been the one who truely loves me after all .

Well , at the very least , you dont treat me as a tissue paper like he did ! HE SUCKS !

BLOG is dead. Blog is dead !!
Oh ? Havent ?
I better revive it !!!

Here goes .
Well , had been sleeping quite early these days .
I mean , in th room doing my stuffs .
But in everyones' eyes.. Im asleep .
Laughhs .
Went chilling out after work yesterday
&Yeahs ,My vodka.
Drank vodka cranberry last night.
Watch co. playpool .
Went geylang for supper after that .
&Headed back home.
Before before that , wasnt much larhs .
Just a simple word .
SICKED.
Thats all . Laughs(:
Alright ! I have a pu chang to make one of these days.
OMG ! cooking for some special person out there.
Idiot asshole .
Wondering why should i .
Maybe because just special person buhs (:
Anyways , got to say bye today kays ?!
BYEEEEEE READERS !

Im sicked ! Urghs ! SHIT &SHUTS .

But someone is there to take care of me uh =)

Felt so blessed =D

Why must all this come so sudden ?

Is there really such things as DESTINED ?

Hais . Anyways ...

TIME TO RESSSTTTT MOREEEE =D

bye readers ! short post today !

There's pasta &potatoes on th table ,
Just right in front of me.
Both are my favourites .
But now , I could only eat one.
I know I've to make a choice this time round.
Pasta ? Potatoes ?
Which one would make me happier ?
Which one ?

Oh God , Please tell me.
Which is the one ?
I've been stressing up with family &love.
I shouldnt be thinking about love life right now.
D: Cries ~
Mummy is angry with me .
The school stuffs is killing me .
Love is strangling me .
I might as well end my life !
OH GOD ! SAVE ME !
Time to sayyyyyyyy ,
GOODBYE READERSSSS D:

May i know , will i be happier if i go with you ?

Hey readers !
I've taken out mah tagboard again. D:
Sorry for any inconvenience caused (:
But you all could still get to me thru' handphones. (:
If do not have mah new number , Get it from me ohs. (:
Currently feeling so sick &My bed is callinggg me !!!
Byyyyeeee readers !

The beauty of photographs.

I captured this moment at work todays.

So , I aim to capture all beautiful moments from now on.

Alrights day i have had today !

Feeling sicked up.

Was planning to get an MC.

But raymond took it.

ASSHOLE.

Went to work feeling so SICKEDUP.

Anyways, gonna bloggoff now!

BYYEEEEE READERS !!!

I still miss him lots. But i guess it will be okay .(:

Time has proven everything.
&Its' time for me to let go.
Im so tired to hangon anymore.
Anyways , Time to start anew :D
Opening shop tomorrow.
Damn tired. =/
CNY is nearing soon.
Im gonna shop for clothes soon !
Have a new colour for mah hair ,
A new hairstyle.
(Already planned a hairstyle :D)
TIME ! I need time !!!
Anyways , BYEEEEEEEE READERS !

Manage to upload some pictures.

&I know it sucks.

Noones is welcome to drop any comments.

&My day is about picturing !!

Thats really all about it today.

BYEEEEEE READERS !

Blogging @th office.
There's isnt any cable down here.
So it's like , i cant upload mah photos right now.
I shall upload them up later.
Morning , Went to 'Din Tai Fung'.
With gram , mummy &my lovely boy.(:
Ate the xiaolongbao which i craved badly for so longggg. (:
PEACE !
&Then went back home to collect mah boots.
Paid mah phone bills today.
Cost me fifty bucks. D:
Head down to desker &thn i get mah butt off there.
To C.S (citysquare).
With gram &my boy. (:
Bought something for mah boy &it cost around twenty bucks.
Spend a hundred today.
FCUK ! I shall start planning to save up buhhs.
Thats all about it for now.
Shall update again later on.
Time to say ...
BYYYYYYEEEE readers !

Was catching 黑糖玛奇朵last night.

&only catch mah lil' wink this morning for an hour.

Went to work as per normal.

Life is getting boring.

This girl above is missing her zhu badly.

But she's probably going to giveup.

She dunno. Maybe? Probaably?

Let fate decides buhs.

Alrights, Got to say byeeee people for now.

BYEEEEEEE !

Take care , I loved you once alrights? I miss you so.

36 days without you. Life is tough but moving on slowly.

I wanna end this life of mine!
FCUKED!
Ivan came to work today.
Closed of a sales of target hitted.
I am going to giveup soon.
Or have i?
Let fate &time decides what i really want buhs.

Though mah life becomes like a missing puzzle without you,
But i know, it still have to carry on.
&I gonna let go soon , Let go totally.

Im so tired out from everything.
I need a break.
I wanna get out of this nightmare.
A nightmare that last for 35 days,
All without you.
Heng starts work officially today.
Yahs , Thats all about it buhs.
If im not wrong , Ivan coming to work tomorrow buhs.
Byeeee people !
Im freaked out of life. It sucks!

I just feel like giving up soon.
Cause Im tired of waiting.
Awaiting for someone to no avail is tough.
Why let me sink deeper when you already know that it's th ending?
I hate th cruel world.
Th cruel reality. ):

34 days without you. Im giving up soon.

Firstly...

Bananas of the shop unites!

Hahas .(:

Arrange th bananas as you can see , It's like so to death date lerhs.

Got to sell them off quickly!

Days was so and so.

Went home, cancel th plan of mah late night movies.

Ben &Jerry's ice creams are yummy.

SLURPPSSLURPPS.. x)

Bought th hello kitty thing &LOLS.

Cause it's so cute. (((:

Anyway , i post this out because of dumbdumb.

He wanted to see this hellokitty.

So lame. ((((:

BUHBYEEEEEEE people !

FCUKEDUP!
PISSEDOFF!
How i wish mah zhu was hear to hear mah cries &shouts!
Didnt wanna talk about it.
Was cleaning ahlong's bike.
Ahlong , Raymond &Me.
Working.
I wanna watch "Have you hear about a morgan?"
I dont care! Tonight !

One month One day without you. Life sucks!

Xiaorisse wishes all readers a HAPPY 2010 !
Yooooooooo !
Im having fun over at workplace with colleagues &co.
Fun with sprays &firecrackers.
BBQ stuffs &fcharcoals.
Running here &there.
Xiaorisse has FINALLY get over 2009
&is now heading towards th future.
She's gonna be one year older.
&A year nearer to death.
New resolutions , New aims.
He's still in my mind.
Be it this or that , i gonna fight fight fight till...
im freakkingly tired out.
I miss you so...

Waiting are th moments that i might breakdown. But im doing it for you.