♥LIFE REALLY SUCKS♥
finally out after 1 whole month . after today , i dont even noe whether will i stil be out furr more and more homeleave . life inside really sucks . dun understand peeps all around . well , let me update on life fur past 4 weeks which i havent been out ! how pathetic it is lorhs . firstly , had some quarrel with her ): shag ! shed so much tears larhs . kind of buzy nowadays with N level ! stressed alrights ! HAPPY NEW YEAR friends!
7 more tortoise months to go alrights ! i dont even know how long i can last ! going to rot reall sooon . maggots appearing liaos lorhs ! HMPFSHMPFS! i miss mah kysiao and some of other friends who is not here ....
PS♥aubrey ; kailing ; zaryll ; tracia ; peiling ; erma ; ruoshi ; shirline ((:
friends , happy new year ((:
sighs~ just now went to grandma house . SIANS! but psst psst , i won $2.50 ! laughs . not having really so much fun but ok ok larhs . tomorrow going back to SGH liaos . so bored larhs ! time is really crawling it's own lollipop time ! so slow ! just hope it will hurry up larhs ! i wanna discharged !! hmms ... life inside _* fur th past few weeks , have been alone or with mah kaopei . nothing else lorhs . thinking of zaryll and just thought that everything is so fake ! th one that says love me is her but th one that chengxim is also her . dun understand what she wants . i read what she wrote in friendster fur me ): wan noe ? sighs~ damn xin tong but what can i do !!! just treat it i dunno anething ? hui bu hui very stupid of me ?!


Biatch , I am here tuhh drop you a msg. Hmmms. I wanted tuhh tell you smth but I dont noe how tuhh kai ko. Haishh. I really dont noe how tuhh put it into words. Haishh. You may blame me for all these , you may hate me. But you really came in too late lerhhs. Haishh. I loved you ALOT derhhs. In fact when I look back at those things that made me think of you , I shedded tears for you too derhhs. I heard abt you crying in dorm too. I am really very sorry. Maybe we dont have th fate bahhs. Haishh. Mayeb God is playing a trick on us bahhs. Haishh. But tuhh tell you honestly , wo dui ni yi jing hen CHENG XIM lerhhs. Its rite , I do feel that you dont noe how tuhh treasure and appreciate my love that I had for you. Sometimes you do make me feel that you take me for granted. haishh. Maybe you wont agree tuhh all these. But I merely tell you how exactly I feel only bahhs. Haishh. Be it my fault or yours , all I can say is that I really do not noe how tuhh carry on with you and whether tuhh carry on with you mahhs. Haishh. Just call me when you are out bahhs. I need tuhh have a good talk with you. Yeahs? haishh. I guess you also noe abt me and cassandra lerhhs bahhs. Haishh. Actually I just take her tuhh see whats your reaction derhhs. Me and her actually nth derhhs. I send send her tuh see how you will react only niahhs. Yahhs. And as I've expected , you wont do anything derhhs. Haishh. At times I really do think that you are not ready for rs. Haishh. Maybe I'm not th rite one for you bahhs. Maybe you cant find happiness in me bahhs. I dont noe. Haishh. Well, bottom line , be it you read this lerhhs mahhs , just give me a call th moment you are out for HL bahhs. Yahs? Take good care. And I am sorry for th tears that I made you shed over th cassandra thingy. Thanks for loving me ONLY NOW!!! But im afraid that maybe its a bit too late lerhhs bahhs , I dont noe also. Hmms. Anw , happy lunar new year in advance. Take care. MISSES~!

MISSES ,
Busterd Emerson

i really dont know what should i be thinking right now . so confused . just now i called her . everything seems to be fine but .... what's all this message about ? can aneone tells me ? i really didnt do anething . i did all i can . i cant go back every week lyke she could . i cant do a lot of things lyke she could . she didnt saw what ive done and she claims that i didnt do anething . really very MESSED up ! ryte now , suddenly th scared is just there again . i really dont know why must she lead cass on . dui cass fair marhs ? should i just forget it or should i .............
i really doesnt wanna let her go ... but am i hurting mahself to hold on to her ? what if she just simply wanna make me angry again and lead th other person on ? what's wrong with this world man ! sighs~ lyfe really sucks larhs ! anewae , so far ... we talked things out on th phone just now . hope everything is alryte barhs !
oh ya ! just now went to grandma house . they look at me as if they see alien lykdat , oh mah tian kong ! sighs~ it's true ... what's wrong with this world man ! IMISSHER