Hit sales of three thousand.
Not bad. Not bad.
I got mahself in a flour-ryy state today while packing flour.
Laughh mah lungs off!
Im looking all so white &they are laughing at me!
So bad canns ?!
Thoughts for today:

• Misses
• Is it worth?
• How true is it?
• What are we?
• Wil it last?

Basically it seems like, everythings' bout him.
Drown in mah PSP games and him.
Oh god!

Im tired from working today.

&Im missing him.

I suddenly feel that mah whole family except for one or two ,
Everyone is so damn sucked up
&No sense of moral talking.
URHKKKKS !

Be there for me always , &not leave me again.
Use another words of love to say i love you to me again.
&It works on me.
Cause i trust , &i believe.
Dont break mah heart.

Everything ended.
I know.
You dont have to say anything anymore.
I know it clearly.
Unless i got it all wrong ?
I dont think so buhs.
Im tired.
Today, mah colleagues make me smile.
Im going to go to work tomorrow.
Bye peeps !

End work early today at 9pm.
Train home straight with ahlong.
Didnt do much stuffs.
Im tired from a lot of things.
No hopes anymore.

Today's tiring.
Mood swings.
Tomorrow gonna work again.
Oh god, save me.
Not concentrative enough today.
Kept pressing wrong amount ,
Wrong stuffs,
&Everything simply goes wrong.
Watch show today
&pack lots of stuffs.
But still , im missing him !

Working.
Busying.
Picturing.
No mood to do anything but still
Missing.
Tearing.
Loving.
Thinking.
All for him.
No mood.
Got to go.
Bye peoples!

These are th pics i took using xiaojiu's N97 today while on th way to work x)

I know i aint happy.
I know im not happy.
I know i wont be happy.
But still, Im trying to hangon just for him.

I know im upset.
I know im crying.
I know im sulking.
But still, Im trying to staystrong just for him.

No more hour.
No more minute.
No more second.
No more all this for him.

Xiaorisse isnt happy now. She need more time...
Need more more more time for him. )):

Today.
Tired out.
But somehow brighten up when i received a call from Zhu after mah tiring day.
Skip mah dinner today.
Went home after work.
Fried an egg , cook cup noodle.
Ate it.
&here im bloggin in.
At th same time, not forgetting... i miss him. <333

UPDATED NEWS!
Xiaorisse had found herself a new job with her uncle.
But th condition would be NO phone allows during working time.
OHMYGOD!
Xiaorisse cant survive with this planning.
Working had already taken her time away from meeting zhu
&Now she cant even use phone?!?!
Xiaorisse is seriously unhappy with this planning.
Very unhappy but there is nothing she could say.
Because they want her to work there.
&She dont understand why.
Xiaorisse is thinking a lot right now
&Its time she feels she should blog off.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEE !!

LATEST UPDATE ON XIAORISSE'S BLOG! (:



Peo-ple ,
I placed a TAGBOARD.
Let's see who's th first to tag yeahs? Xiaorisse has th sudden urge to stable down in life.

1. Find a job
2. Find a tiongxim Boyf
3. Stable down
4. Get married
5. Have sex
6. Give birth
7. Go travelling
8. Enjoy life

Yeah, xiaorisse said that she's ready.She's just waiting for her tiongxim Boyf to come along.(:Oh god, Cant believe im having these plannings. I guess I've already grewup. xDDYeah, Grewup.((:

Im quitting smoking.
Because someone says he hate smokers. xD

Someone is hiring me! for a pay of $1200 per month.
&Im considering it now.
Th current job im having, th pay was low &its boring mah time away mostly.
Work environment wise, its not very good lehs.
So many ** there &i will feel uneasy derh!
Zhu know what it is horhs ?
Laughhs.
Im boring mah day away today.
Without reporting to work.
Probably gonna drop this job soon.
It is really killing me.
Maybe i shall get a new job soon ?
Yeah, a new job.

Im sick &tired.
Tired from crying.
Enough of everything.
Bye peo-ples.

This are th pics i took yesterday when im bored &missing mah pig (((:

It has been so long since i ton th night out.
I miss mah nightlife.
Seriously i do miss it.
Im gonna find one of these days to ton again.
I am. But before that , i better make sure he isnt angry. xD

Im really sick this time round.
Kept vomitting out whatever i had eaten
&its disgusting , YUCKS !
Im feeling sick &wobbly all over.
Just wanna lie down on th bed &POM !
But i just cant get asleep.
Fcuk !
Im tired to post again today.
Anyway , i miss him .(:

Oh god ! I havent been working nowadays.
Hmms, stayed home tonight &thats all.
Didnt plan to meet anyone.
Thats it. Maybe finding Zhu tonight!
I have been a Taxi-holic &Shopa-holic nowadays.
Money, money, money.
Shit mans ! I aint rich !

I didnt went to work.
Just had a walk around with Yun &meet up with Soon.
Arcade off mah anger out in Zone-X.
Had a little thing with Zhu.
&Now, im tired. officially tired.
BYYYYYEEEE PEOPLE.

I entrust mah emotions to you. Take care of it.

Today sales was quite good.
Not quite, It's better. (:
Laughhs.
Saw joanne peh too.
Messaging Zhu all th way.
There are so many happy things today!
For me to know &for me to know!
Laughhs.
Im not thinking when im posting.
Im just not thinking!
I guess i've accidentally pissed someone off &Thats it!
Im sorry.
There was a little bit problem just now &sighhs.
I've got no mood to post right now.
Anyway, overall mood for today...
Im all SMILES because of Zhuuu !
You better meant what you say today. xD


承诺，不是说许下就会完成. 只是希望这不是说说就算了的话.

Train down to P.S to meet Soon &I almost lost mah way.
Oh god! So kumgong canns ?!
Laughhs. (:
Got shoot by Soon th whole day.
What th fcuk?!
Laughhs. Bought rose for his girlf
&We cabb down to Queensway to fetch Yun.
On th way there, Im laughing th whole journey in cabb.
Th uncle is so cool! He brought his wife along to work.
So kawaiii .((((:
Received some messages from Zhuu today &That makes me smile.
Bus-ed home after that.
Didnt send Yun straight to her door today.
Was having headache.
Went straight home after that &Zhu commented :" Guai <3".
Laughhs.(:
Zhu was also having bad headache &he went to sleep lerhs.
Zhuuu, you better rest well larhs. &take good care of your tongue! stupid you xDDD
Now, Im blogging in agains.
And, ended.


You had been so random today. Really random. But you really made mah day!! You're being miss-ed.((:
你来的时候，也许...是对的吧!

Didnt report to work today.
Neither did i go out.
Im SICKED.
terribly sick &th sickly feeling SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!
Just wish that i will be well again tomorrow.
Im planning to move out.
Find a place, Moved out !
Quick ! Begins mah action plan TODAY!
Hmm, was damn rotting at home luhs.
Not going out.
Zhuu said that i should RESTTTTTTT~
&maybe he didnt realise that i was BORED.
oh god! So i will be playing com th whole day ?
WOW! Thats cool &amazing.
No audition , No maple.
Nothing ! but just websites &only websites.
Due to that it is a Laptop,
I cant download games. Shitty lorhs!
Was just waiting for Zhu to get home! Then i wont be BORED!
xDDD tsktsk.

Feverish feeling totally sucks.
My pack of marlboro is left with 4sticks.
&Soon was telling me, wahhh... someone going to quit lerhh lehs.
Shyts ! 4more sticks
&i gonna say " Ye RuiSi , you can smoke NOMORE. "
No more cigg in mah life.
But Zhu ! Being th first hand is better thn th second marhs. x)
Joking only luhhs !
I will quit derhhs. Dont worry. I give you mah words.
Today was damn tired at work.
I slept at mah workplace.
Sales wasnt good at all.
Thats just so boring to hear huhs?
Went straight back home after work.
Guai huhs ?
Chat with Zhuzhu in msn till he went to sleep early.
And here i am, blogging in mah daily life.


I hate being sick but i know zhu, you will take care of me derhh horhs ? Laughhs ! You're being Miss-ed !
你好象他但我知道你不是。你也不会是。至少，你在乎我的每一个感受。你没有neglected我。

Damn it! Every plans on tuesday SPOILED.
Which means i have to go to work!
Which means i need to wakeup early!
Zhuuu message me today morning.
Was so damn happy luhhs actually.(:
Things are back to normal already between me &Zhuuu.(:
Sooooo happy luhhhhs (((((((:
Zhuuu, Im not going to do that again alrights?
Which also means that Im not going to make you angry lerhs!
Hear that? Im not.
Laughs.
Hmmms, actually today planning to go out with cousin derhs.
But at last ? Fcuk larhs.
Well, in th end..
I just have to go to work.
One word, BOREDDDDDD~




I realise your importance only that day when i almost lost you. Im not going to have that day again. &I will never have it.

IM GOING TO BEAT AHSOON IN TEKKEN6 ! JUST WAIT &SEE!!
hmpfs! spend 12 rounds of tekken with Soon today at vivo. Damn it!
see? I told you im going to post it out big on blog!
Wasnt really in a good modd th whole of today &yeahs, it lies within him.
Today is mah off &yet i didnt quite really enjoy it!
I brought mah pinky pooh bear to vivo today!
Was nonsencing about in th bus back to queensway
&Soon actually ignored me!
What the hell.
Was missing zhuuu th whole day &i just find him weird today.
I know its bad to think too much but i just cant help but to...
THINK THINK THINK!
It is really sucky to know nothing but nothing.
At least if i could know whats happening,
i wouldnt be so stressup !
I dont like to be stress. I dislike th feeling a lot!
Zhuuuu, If only you get to read this post. I guess you would.
Zhuuuu, I would have to let you know that you are equally important.
No matter what, i've change a lot.
&I know i really did this time.

• Lessen mah smoking.
• No longer skip my meals.
• Didnt ton th night out so much anymore.
• Go home straight after work.
• Try mah best to save up.
• Plannings to quit smoking.

Though i dunno what is happening between th both of us today.

Th atmosphere in between had been cold. Really cold this time.

I really hope everything would be back to normal agains.

You know how i feel rights? i know you knew.

A Big Sighh~ Had a huge quarrel with mummy & thats it!

Im beginning to runaway from reality agains.

I know it isnt th right choice. But what?

No more other choice. cause th only choice left for me is to FACEIT!

which i will never never want that choice at all! NEVER!

I hate mah life. Yahs, &I hate myself.

I hate myself if one day i lose you. Cant say thats love because i knew thats not. I hate my life now &you brighten it up for me. Now you seems not to care anymore, Theres noone else to light it up for me. Its dark &gloomy but theres no torchlight arounds. There used to be you to light th way, but i seem to lose this light for me to see. No longer there i think. No longer there i feel. I hope its all a nightmare. &when i wokeup, it will still be mah dream, mah fantasy, mah falalas which im always in. I know its just a short while, but i dun wan this even if its just a second. Cause i know im lost right now. Im lost &Im beginning to hate mahself. I really hate mahself. Just to let you know, mah heart is having its asthma now &you have unknowingly be mah asthma pump.): Imissyou , I really miss you.

Nuer &Mummy. (: Naughty us.

So boring lorhs.

Nuer snap me !

Thats us !

Sheena &Risse. ((:

Mum &Daughter in Camera 1, 2, 3 !

So boring. Begins Our zilian -.-

Thats mah dressing for work today!!

Ohs !

Blweahhhs xDDD

Nuer , ILOVEYOU girl !

Zhuuuuu , i felt unwanted by you today .))):

Im missing you zhuuuu . )):

Dressing for work today . (((:

Dont ever make me shed any tears For you.

Yeruisi is staying strong at her best !Illusion-ed.

Im afraid of so many things.

Me &Nuer is like so bored lorhs in th middle of th night.

I didnt Drink drank drunk.(:

Laughhs. Im cheered up by her. (: &Someone else.

xDDD only me &nuer knew who is it!

Nuer, thanks for being there! Iloveyou!

Stuffs myself with so many food just now.

Smoke twice today. ):

Yeahs , tomorrow off day !!!

Find mah zhuuu up ? see first buhhs !! tsktsk*

不知不觉中，你已成为我生命中的一个重要的人。